I am Scared

Yesterday night, the feeling came to me. I lied on the bed. Suddenly there came the helpless, annoying, breathless feeling. I couldn't stand it and in a second, I got up and got to the window, opened it and I found half of my body was out there. Fear woke me up and I shouted at the street. I got myself back sitting beside the window and starting to laugh. The kind of laugh I didn't understand at all. I feel that I can no longer control my feeling, even my body. I woke up in the morning and I am afraid that I lost the will to go on.