Today is a special day. The first cousin in our family get married. I have a big family. 5 aunties, 3 uncles and 18 cousins. We are quite bonded when we were young, when grandma is here. I am one of the elder seeing them grow up. But I was never too closed to them for I left the country long time ago. I always regret that.
Since when, I heard problems coming up in each family. Affairs, money, crime, etc. The most heardbreaking one is ... my little cousin killed herself. She was only 19 and she was under medication on depression. It was about 5 years ago.
When grandma left, it was very hard for all of us. Grandma is a very tough woman with very kind heart. She is the muse, the center, the bond to us. I love her old stories, her life philosophy, her comfort when mother beat me up, love chatting with her about everything. She always encourage me never once being negative.
I guess her leaving is not easy for all of us. We met less after. Less love in the family. More problem comes up. She loves every grandkids. If she knows Tingting is gone like that, she would be ..... or she would not let that happen.
The groom is the elder brother of Tingting. The wedding day is her birthday - the 22th of November. Every family members (still in hong kong) will go tonight. Bring in some happiness to the family after all. There is a scene in my dream...... that just like the old time when we were all kids. We can always be there in each gathering. Grandma is busy in preparing food. Aunts and uncles are busy in playing marjong and chichating. We kids are busy playing creative but silly games. Laugh spreads everywhere in the house... Everyone is there...
Since when, I heard problems coming up in each family. Affairs, money, crime, etc. The most heardbreaking one is ... my little cousin killed herself. She was only 19 and she was under medication on depression. It was about 5 years ago.
When grandma left, it was very hard for all of us. Grandma is a very tough woman with very kind heart. She is the muse, the center, the bond to us. I love her old stories, her life philosophy, her comfort when mother beat me up, love chatting with her about everything. She always encourage me never once being negative.
I guess her leaving is not easy for all of us. We met less after. Less love in the family. More problem comes up. She loves every grandkids. If she knows Tingting is gone like that, she would be ..... or she would not let that happen.
The groom is the elder brother of Tingting. The wedding day is her birthday - the 22th of November. Every family members (still in hong kong) will go tonight. Bring in some happiness to the family after all. There is a scene in my dream...... that just like the old time when we were all kids. We can always be there in each gathering. Grandma is busy in preparing food. Aunts and uncles are busy in playing marjong and chichating. We kids are busy playing creative but silly games. Laugh spreads everywhere in the house... Everyone is there...
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