Fear of God

When Israel saw the great work God did to Egyptians, "they fear of God and believe him!" Talking about fear of God, I never do. I don't know why, maybe I am against everything including his power. Somehow I fear but just not enough to not challenge him. Since the illness happened on me, I begin to fear a bit. Not that afraid of dying (as I know I will be in heaven), but don't want to die in pain, suffer, wasting money to heal, losing freedom in going here and there, can do nothing (I have many things wanting to do?!). Without fear of God, we do lots of bad things to ourselves. In the end, all we find is nothing is worth for joy and fulfilment. Dropping deep down the Cliff, the feeling is so scary, hopeless and dead (trust me! It's exactly the feeling when I got anxiety attack). He already told us in the beginning. Only that we fear and follow his way, we are his happy kids. Easy! Fear of God, not because we're weak, but we are smart! Exodus14