The third person met in heaven, tells us to forgive our parents. Because all parents damage their children through neglect, violence and silence. Children are sensitive, helpless and innocent, unable to defense themselves. Of course parenthood is never easy. But even bible tells parents not to make children angry. Because angry becomes hatred. And hatred does not just disappear. It affects one's relationship with people, marriage and career, most importantly their next generation.

I hate my mother again. Yes again. I've been putting it down and thought I am over it. But recently, it got me again. She is a bitch to me. My concerns to her make her even more bitchy. None of my effort gain her satisfying. That makes me frustrate and getting tired of pleasing her. I love her and understand she is going through ear problem. I guess the love is not enough for her excessive blame to everyone especially those who love her. She must learn to treasure, to appreciate, and to express feeling in a normal way. But she just never have to learn it coz it happened to have people spoiling her in all these years. Sorry, not me! Not my strength. The bitchy her remind me of the neglect, violence and silence on me. I hate her I hate her I hate her. I hate it like I must please her. I hate to put my feeling always after hers. I hate her arrogant as if she had always been a good mother!?! c'mon, who is she kidding?! Hatred is eating me. God please help me from drowning in it.