Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Grow up, mother!

To many people, "mother" equals to love. But to me, this word means selfish, emotional, wicked, pride, judgemental, reject, insane (sometimes), out of control, pathetic, living in the past, mentally weak, control freak, hateress. Yet, I can't explain why, there is still love for her. Only a little gesture from her representing a little nicer, my heart get softer. Even though I am pretty sure that she hurts me again, I want to give her chance. (maybe I have no choice in a mother!)

The reason talking about her again, is that she'd been a bitch again. Not to me, but to sister and my friend. Take the religious conversation personal after a church meeting and attack sister with mean phrases at a restaurant. She claims she is victim (well of course she always be) and she get really disappointed with sister and Christianity. Never want to meet sister in a short while and will surely not going to holy land with her in July after this incident. What can I say! This is so her. Like child fight.

The real cause is she is not happy with me and dad not bringing her to Japan. And she expected when she paid for the dinner, everyone should listen and agree to her preach, especially in front of her friends. I only hope her growing up one day.

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