Should be at integrated exercise class right now. How many classes I've skipped in my life? Where can I find my motivation to do anything? How can I be persistent on anything? I am really frustrated inside. Because I know I m wasting my life. Already wasted half of my life. Jesus, how can I stop wasting my life like this. When can I learn how to commit and be responsible to at least myself? I have no confident at all to let anyone into my life. I mean how can I if I keep being so unstable, unreliable, and lack of energy and motivation? What positive energy I can bring to someone if I can't even do one thing completely? Jesus, am I sick inside or just being too lazy? Coz I really want to change but I can't do anything with it. Can u or anyone help me out of this!!