Bad dream again... So frustrated of bad dream reminding me all the past. I ask God, I haven't even think abt them. How can I stop them attacking me in the night. I really need to wake up refresh. In the dream, I met him again. He kept the same one length curly haircut. He brought me to the cha chan teng. In the dream, he got on my nerve again just like before. I felt familiar, intimacy, regret, but wait... there's no passion or affection. Then we found dad on the next table. I woke up and felt really tired, empty, alone, and helpless. What is this dream abt? I miss him? I want him back? I gotta kiss the past goodbye? I pray for strength and say goodbye to him when I awoke. It's torturing to keep having these dream every morning. Pls release me, free me from my past. I am ready to go!

I am sad. relationship make me sad. it reminds me of bad relationship, bad memory from the past. it reminds of all the loneliness with or without relationship. I should be exciting but I am sad. I am desperate but sad. I can't see your plan so I get even more hopeless. I am afraid. So nauseous and dizzy in waiting. Stress from the encouragement and support from friends. they all want me to end with happy marriage. they're my best friends. but I get cold feet. I need to back off. it's too hard for me. I pray hard but I cant find any strength. I cant stand any stress. the best i can do is to escape and lie. I feel very sick. what should i do? God I need your help!!

Should be at integrated exercise class right now. How many classes I've skipped in my life? Where can I find my motivation to do anything? How can I be persistent on anything? I am really frustrated inside. Because I know I m wasting my life. Already wasted half of my life. Jesus, how can I stop wasting my life like this. When can I learn how to commit and be responsible to at least myself? I have no confident at all to let anyone into my life. I mean how can I if I keep being so unstable, unreliable, and lack of energy and motivation? What positive energy I can bring to someone if I can't even do one thing completely? Jesus, am I sick inside or just being too lazy? Coz I really want to change but I can't do anything with it. Can u or anyone help me out of this!!