When we came to a proper ages, wedding is heading to you few times a year. Well I must admit wedding susks! Because like a merry-go-round, just never once my turn. Wed of new friends are still standable like the one I just got back from. A wed of my church friends, few years younger than me, just got happily ever after. Still some confuse feeling deep down. Can't even tell what it is. An even worse one, coming this month, an old u buddy (quite close friend of mine) asked me to be the bridemaid of his bride. His first girlfriend who he met after his 30 become his wife now. How amazing it that. That he got walk on the carpet before me. But that's not the reason I escape from his wed, it's the guest list. Pretty scary to me that 3 of my ex will probably be there. I guess the bravest girl got chicken in this situation. Especially still in her single and mingle stage. God help me out!