Sunday, October 3, 2010

Now I learn about humanity

For now I know how inhuman I've been living.
I was desperate for love.
But when I held it in my hand, I ruined it.
When I wanted, I pushed away. Whom I cared, I hurt.
I laughed when I was weeping inside.
I was unsatisfied but couldn't name it.
I felt silly to reveal my true feeling so I addicted in craving for stuffs that's harmful to my humanity.
I took risk on meaningless and I was proud.
But then I was afraid to risk for meaningful intimacy in relationships.
I told myself relationship diminish your strength.
Yes I believed I was so strong that nothing could stop me!

God awaked me!
Now I'm reborn and full of true strength.
My heart overflows with joy and love.
I shout out and say hello to love! Hello to hope!
And hello to the me who had been buried for all these years.
My naked soul feels great to stretch out.
God promises to protect me from any harm so why bother.
I figure I was born this way ... a bit naive, very frank, sometimes wicked but will regret.
I believe in possibility in change.
My eyes are wide open for the virtue in human.
Every thing and person I encounter with is so beautiful.
All I wanna do is to shout out loud to my holy father that I know he's loving me
and so do I.

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