Tonight should be the last nite for uncle's wife. I brought soup and dinner box to the hopsital. When I hear cousin wanted her younger brother to be tough and not to do silly thing, I really admired her. The parents in our family are all dictators. Relationship is never good with different reasons. A lot of hidden problems waiting to explose. Like my cousin moved out because of uncle's unreasonable and controlling attitude to them. I totally understand because my mom was the same. I am too late to take part in it. To show care. Everyone has ten years. Their 10 years having a mother with cancer and a dad with terrible temper. Mine wandering around, winning about not good enough situation. Have I ever lived in this 10 years? I just never think of others not even my closed family. I was so self-centered, selfish and cruel. I never realize their perception of me is true..... I want to do more from now on. God please bless our family. Bless everyone. Teach us love on another more and more. Make me a peace maker. Give me the gut to shout out your love!