The divorced man ended up a scum. In the beginning, every thing is so smooth and sweet. Until I've been taking care of his dog and he's like completely self-centered. He would decide to come visit them whenever he was free. He would blame me for not letting him. He said he would do the clean up but then I just became the maid for him and his dogs. Also, everytime he came, I felt like he really just wanted to see his dogs but me. He showed totally no interest in me. No deep conversation, no photo album veiwing, nothing but requesting me to cook for him.
What a self centered jerk! It was so not a good sign. I just don't know why I keep crushing on him. Well, maybe I was still giving him tons of excuses for maybe he is shy, has unhappy past with girls bla bla bla. I still wanna give it a try!
The day my dog was leaving, he was with me all day. Well, he was so not handling it well. Not even pass. 1st it took him way too long to drive me to the clinic coz he got the wrong way. Then he kissed me on that night!! Come on I was so lost and so fragile. He took advantage and he is no longer a good guy for sure. Yeah he called and sent message to show caring. He volunteered to be a companion. Trying to kiss me again and further!
Anyway, the time he thought I am already trapped, I refuse to. I clarified our relationship with him and he couldn't do it. I quitted him right there and never answner his calls and messages anymore. He kept pursuing for 2 weeks then he threw at me some kind of blaming message and said won't bother me again. For that it hurts.
I thought that's over. But guess what, 2 weeks later, he asked for being friends by sms. Ha, making it totally like forgetting what he had said. One day, blaming me again for my cruelness. I gave him a chance to talk to me. Very disappointed! No progress at all. Absolutely no sincerity. Stupid me thought no harm for me to keep him. He tried to talk sweet but of course not what I buy. I refused to see him again, just plain chat online for another month.
Today it's my birthday. It's like 2 weeks that he didn't initiate a chat. As a woman, I smell his not interesting. I went on friendly chat with him and he's like putting off all the time. Hours ago, he asked me if I have been dating someone lately. I told him yes and he went mad. 1st he told me he has sour feeling. Then suddenly he revealled that there is a reason for not being agressive on me (of course not telling it). Then he thanks me for being nice to him and dogs and said will never forget me. Then blame himself for not 100% opening himself to me coz he's hiding something (again can't tell me what). Finally, he tried to say it and again of course not telling at last. Blame his bad temper and blame me for not picking him... bla bla bla. Finally, he's like 180 degree turned and told me he will date someone nice and pretty tomorrow. Seeing her photo that he forwarded to me, I can't stand anymore. Wished him good luck and say bye. I guess that's it!
This guy is totally nonsense, unfaithful to even himself. I don't know what happen to him but I for sure don't wanna get involved into it. Maybe he is crazy, bad temper as he said about himself, just don't want commitment but fooling around, or everything about him is a lie. I am sure it will not be a happy relationship to me. Eventhough I am curious and intend to help him out, I believe I don't want to sacrisfy myself to save him. Also, I have no such ability and enough patient and love.
"I really like you. I want to sleep with you. If it's 2years ago, I would have done it. With more wisdom about men, I won't put myself into such situation anymore today. So I guess that's it. It not worth for me to go on like this with you and I am not worth for you too coz you will not be able to get what you want from me. Let's go on our own way. Just don't hurt other good girls coz we are actually very fragile. "
