The More I Cherish, the Easier I lose it! Always!

Just two day before the year of 2006, I lost my favorite necklace! I have never think about it but when I lost it, I knew that it was so very much important to me. The important part isn't the physical thing but the meaning behind. End of 2004, I was having stomach problem. Except spoiling food with no oil and seasoning, I got serious stomach ache after each meal. It was just killing me and I was depress and given up myself because of my health condition. I was hopeless and suprisingly at that time, mother for the very first time gave me very suitable support and care. She was seeing doctor with me. Talking about it with me. Being with me when I got pain and showed sympathy. Then one evening when we were dining out, she gave me this diamond cross pendant necklace. It is not just that. It is her motherhood, love, support, and knowing me (religious needs and the fond of jewels. Long for this gift for so long and I really treasure it. I lost it a year after! What I did then surprised myself. I searched for it in the middle to the night until wild dogs barked me home. The other morning, I took a day off and searched again in the district. I went to 2 police stations to report the lost. I prayed for someone getting it back to me. I begin to know more about myself. Things that I don't want to admit. I love my mother and my family. I long for thier caring and love. I am afraid to lose them. I may not know how to handle if I have to lose them one day. I am in a stage that require family supports. I pray for their health and our relationship getting better and better. I remind myself for not wasting time to not express my caring towards them.