Detached!

Having been a single for years, it was not easy, especially during festivals. Valentine's day is humiliating for sure. Even Christmas, supposed to be celebrating Jesus unconditional love, has becoming another valentine's day. Following will be the New Year eve with no one to celebrate with, kiss with, hug with and to looking forward to a new year together. Chinese New Year is also hard for us. Relatives keep asking you to get yourself married soon. "Don't be picky! Time is up! Bla bla bla..." Meanwhile, more friends are giving you red pocket money. Being the only one qualified to get red pocket money in your peer is scary. Getting out of town is one solution but to whom I can go with? Well, the only thing I hope is they don't ask their first born child to give me the red pocket money one day. Feeling so detached to the city. So crowded yet so lonely. Of course there are many of us that I know for sure. But I wonder where they are and whether it is a club for us so we can get some discounts to dine or to shop that could at least ease some of our pain. The question is when will it end? No one know. Aging with less hope. The whole society forces us to be so desperate. I wish I were a man. They don't have the pressure. Not at work, not from family. They are quality singles but we are fading. No wonder reports said singles get comparatively shorter life, single women particularly! God blesses we single women!