Today I accompany J to meet online dog trader. They are couples already seem not very nice in the beginning. The led us through a the escalator to a dark street. They show us the puppy from their bag. J hold it and we begin a chat. I ask them few questions about the dog. They begin to force J to buy. I try to stop her. When J says she need to think. They begin to shout at us especially me. They insist I am a trader too and not serious buyer wasting their time. They use lots of rude words and I was very offend and angry. There is a very long time I haven't get into a quarrel with strangers. And I was so unprepared! When the man steps forward to me I was threat but not afraid at all. When he threats to follow us to my "pet shop", I threat back to call police. I don't know why I get so angry but I kind of relief after having the chance to shout at someone with a rational reason. J was shocked after we left on the train. She kept apologize to me for getting me into such trouble. I surprise why I was not afraid but I am now. What if I met them on the street alone? Why is there a little bit of proud to be a bitch?

So Stress lately! Dad's company is closing. Coming 3 months are critical. Don't want to get into anymore debt. Let him close it gracefully. Their lives will be different so as mine. I couldn't imagine how it would be but I must believe it will be fine. I know who holds tomorrow. I wish we can be health and wealthy now and then. I hate worrying about tomorrow. I hate those muscle pain. My headache is killing me. God release me from silly future.

So relief! 3 days 2 nights for 8 chapters and 2 quizes of psychology. Very interesting, tired and self satisfacting!

First date with this 40 years old christian. Should be the 1st christian I date all these years. He is average looking (not prince charming though) not tall but really calm and noble. We chat w coffee then dine at udon restaurant. I talked too much and quite stupid. I told him I tend to be talkative when stress?!?! No response from him! Anyway, he added me at FB asked me out to movie next week. For I want to keep it low, will bring friends together hoping him with no offense.

Close friend F is facing lost of mother. She's too calm and positive making me worry a bit. But I know God s taking care of her. Glad I involved in the macau trip with she and her mom last year. Never know the trip becomes one treasurable memory to her now. Do whatever to reduce regret someday! It's what I learnt. Can't stand regret anymore too much stress from it! For this belief, I can say I love you to mom and dad. And I AM a transmitter of God's love to them! Holyspirit, bless our family! bless F!

To be asserted - so important to many people. 40 years of business life, now I need to assist my dad to end it. It is not easy for him but he is brave! I am glad for the supports from F and J(cell group). I m glad I m not alone because family gather and support in such moment. I m glad dad and I communicate so well in this incident. I m glad I grow up in loving and taking care of others. I even let mom to prepare for future financially. She assure me of my contribution in the business and the family. I ve value in this family. They need me! I actually make her glad to have me. just that little thought from her is what I longing for all these years! Anyway I m glad!