Recently dating H. Not handsome, not well educated, not funny at all. Just not sure why I found it romantic when we were trapped in the cable car in the heavy mist. One second I wanted to rest my head on his shoulder. He is calculative, realistic, willing to share true feeling and enjoy controlling women. Totally not my type. But again I'm not sure why I feel comfortable talking to him for hours. Why I am somewhat moved when he be frank to me. Why I eventually am trying to fit into his request. I bet no matter what, it won't go anywhere. Because I love dream more than life. His tactic, playing hard-to-get really disgust me. I mean come on, I invented that! According to my history, it's time to ditch him. The question is, when will this pattern be changed? I am tired.