computer is very strange recently. it took me 5 times to log in to my blogger. one mac is totally down. this borrowed one just hang. mac don't hang usually. super strange. anyway, close friend is confirmed getting married this year. lots of feeling deep down. happy for her definitely. worrying for myself also. will I end up with someone or just die alone? after thinking it over really hard for a few weeks, I confess I scared. pray for it, no significant answer still. I started playing the piano score for some hymns I just get from hymns lesson at church today. peace gradually came and scares gone. heart fill with his love. and suddenly, I found "y not wait in praise if I'll wait anyway" God is faithfulness and he will not miss my pray. yes I will praise until he give it to me. my heart will be full of peace, not insecure when he meet me, right! yeah that's what I should do.