Thirst

I thirst for you Jesus, I thirst for you Thirst for your presence Thirst for your calling for your forgiveness and for your mercies Lord, I thirst for you

Breast Cancer?!

Left breast feeling a bit of pain lately. So go for check this week. Bomb, there is something inside. A fibroid? Cancer? Dunno yet! Enough to drag me down. I pray while dr is checking. Miriclely, I got peace inside. "Kid, nothing to worry, you are mine!" He said. Report will take a couple days. Then will consult dr for next action with the report. Life is a rollercoaster! I guess the down feeling doesn't come from the breast problem but no one to share and care. Well, the only one I had told by now is dad, who gave no comment as if it was just a bite by mosquito. The incapable of sharing my situation hurt me a bit. Today, I shared with one of my best friend J. She will pray for me and I felt better. But the most comfort I got from unexpectly - my little sis in the states. While we were sharing Christian's life and struggles and faith and thankful experience, just like that, I found myself feeling better and better. We shout haleluja almost at the same time. How can I not see God so love me and my whole family. And that he announces in our conversation that, He will not abandon me, ever!

Angry Selling

I am very angry. Today, supposed to be completion of selling my flat. Everything is ready, except the buyer not happy with the lighting. First I was really annoying for being asked to fix the light for them. Was trying to avoid responsiblity and trouble during this big holiday that everything closed. When I knew money might be taken from my deposit, I understand I had to fix it anyway. I really don't want to pay a even a penny on the house which is going to be others. So this morning, my very first time, I check the procesure on the internet and I fixed it myself and I actually did it! HA! To tell the truth, I start to understand the buyers' mind when I went up there and found several light not be able to get on. No one will settle that easy for that for a 2 million HK dollars good. Okay! So how come I still get angry the whole evening. The solitcitor is on their side keeping up my deposit until they checked the lighting is all fine. It's not about how much it is. It's about fairness. The lighting is all good now, just they don't have time to check. Why should my deposit be hold?! The solicitor said it's legal for them to return the deposit within 21 days. And one thing she said really upset me. She said even they charged me for a thousand dollars to fix the lighting is fair enough. Come on! Nothing is wrong with the lighting. How would lighting cost 1000 dollars anyway? I hate the feeling of waiting for mercy. They should return deposit as the house has no problem. It's fine now. Why would I have to wait and worry that they charge me for stupid reason? It's just not fair! and supposed to represent ME, the solicitor stands by their side???! I am so regret to leave them a HK10000 closet. If for the preious me, I would throw away, break it, etc anything but to leave it to them. What will Jesus do in the circumstances? How can the angry go away?