2008

I envy people. Those who embrace life, live with dream, not giving up, brave for challenge. I envy them. Myself, I've been wasting my life. How come I never have the feeling of living is so good. How come there is nothing in the world that make me feel I want to live for it. Is life itself really that charming? If so, how come I never feel it that way. I just don't enjoy my life very much. I have almost everything materialwise. And now I have also friends and family who love me dearly. How come that just don't make me embrace life. I am the most lost person in the whole world. For so long, I still don't know what I need. I have no dream, no motivation, no talent, no desire... I hate to waste my life but I can do nothing. I try to do it better but I am too weak. How could everyone hang on and I slip off every time. I really don't get it and totally lost, frustrated and helpless. This is a new year again. I really want to change my life up side down. This year, I want to make more valuable friends, love more people, learn more and act more like bible, hang on in a regular job and one volunteer work. I want to bring happy to other more, be more patient and tender as Jesus.