Feeling down recently. I want to be in love. I am lonely. I want to be hug into sleep. I miss the lost one. I am desperate. I lost my confident. No one want me? There is no one meant to be mine? I am not good enough? I am a defect? I did thing terribly wrong and deserve to end alone? Am I gonna have my own kids? Own family? Will my parents see me getting married? I don't have the confident now. I am very insecure and sad because I can't stand the loneliness.