Thursday, September 21, 2006

In the Fog

Have you ever in anykind of addictions - wine, cigarette, drugs, sports, love and sex. It's no fun for a control freak as me.
Addiction, I believe, is caused by self blaming, low self esteem, or even with the intention of self destroying. Very scary and huge problem!
The feeling is like walking in the fog all by self. No direction but very exciting. But after all, the pleasure is often very short term and regrettable. Sometimes, it is even not enjoyable as before but still one will continue doing it. Gradually, an increasing hatre to oneself and others ends up with repeating addiction behavior. This cycle forbids the addictor to have the ability to get up himself.
Addiction also often isolates one from society, friends and family. Making it harder to get support when mostly needed. Sinking with no recuse explains the situation.
2G is what I need now to get rid of the addiction. Well I am experienced. God and Guts.

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