Every Morning is Painful

Every morning is painful Every shower is cold Every journey is endless Every smile is hard Every word is meaningless Every plan is off Every season is winter Every room is empty Every road is dead-ended Every song is blue Only cigarette pleases me Killing me bit by bit Bringing me closer and closer To where I belong with

The Devil wears Prada Review

Watched The Devil wears Prada. Not a brilliant movie but fun for a watch. A girl with smart resume but with no sense of fashion gets a job from Vogue (Runway in the movie). Stuggling with: To have own "style" or to be wrapped with branded high fashion clothing like others To insist in showing the devil boss her ability or to quit just like that To do it as a job that pays the bills or to be "into" it and to build passion for what she is doing To keep a steady relationship or to go for a charm talented romantic writer To choose friendship or to seize the chance of climbing up in career To be self or to be someone everyone admires To stick with own dream or to be sidetracked by everybody's "dream job" The movie reminds me of my first job. I had a devil boss too (well who doesn't). I hanged in there for 6 months. I am proud of myself for I have shown I am not a baby who just gives up when there is bad time. Life is about choice. Very easy to get lost. Set on the dream and hang in there...... I am still learning that!!!!!!

In the Fog

Have you ever in anykind of addictions - wine, cigarette, drugs, sports, love and sex. It's no fun for a control freak as me.

Addiction, I believe, is caused by self blaming, low self esteem, or even with the intention of self destroying. Very scary and huge problem!

The feeling is like walking in the fog all by self. No direction but very exciting. But after all, the pleasure is often very short term and regrettable. Sometimes, it is even not enjoyable as before but still one will continue doing it. Gradually, an increasing hatre to oneself and others ends up with repeating addiction behavior. This cycle forbids the addictor to have the ability to get up himself.

Addiction also often isolates one from society, friends and family. Making it harder to get support when mostly needed. Sinking with no recuse explains the situation.

2G is what I need now to get rid of the addiction. Well I am experienced. God and Guts.