Pop music

Karaoke whenever I wore out. I felt open up after. For a short period. Then even more lonely. Songs attracted me are usually w strong negative emotion (I just can't tell why). Maybe that's the reason. Just read an article talking abt how Satan use pop music to interfere our subconsciousness in worshipping him. Scary! If that's true, I was cured by pop music throughout my life and I don't even know. Somehow pop has less influence to me now. But how about other stuffs like movies, parties, dances, luxury indulgence, etc. I'm different from other christians. Is these the reasons? Jesus would you give me wisdom to select so I can freely get close to you.

Waiting for a Job

Torture! waiting for a job at my favorite ngo. If I don't get any of the 2 post, I really don't know why God gave me interview. Already over a week. Chance getting lower. My heat sink deeper. My self esteem hit the bottom. I really don't know how to go on...

Friendship

Waiting for the result of a job. Feel insecure, anxious and sad. Especially in freezing days, really wanna surrounded by someone who loves me. Friendship, I got many that sometimes I don't realize. They appear when I cry for help from the inside. Some call me hello. Some welcome me to dinner. Some bring me to a nice tea buffet. Some shop around w me. Some accompany me to Jim Carrey's 3D movie. Some, thinks of me n text me. Even a caring facebook message is just what I need. In coming thanks giving, I would thank God to treat me w all these great friends. And I pray for the capacity of being one for them. Bless those in need just like I do now.

Being Single and Fabulous

Just got back from counseling class. I'm pretty encourage. Being single is v lonely and usually have no one to share with. How can we be single and fabulous at the same time?
1. God loves both singles and couples
2. Don't get too independent
3. Get used to be w couples, provide support and learn abt family from them
4. Mind free from "single"
5. Take "single" as another trail in life. No diff fr any other difficulty in life
6. Share love w children, family, those in need, friends etc to fulfill the need of loving n being loved
7. Single is a state not a stage that I don't need to get married to be completed or be mature
8. 獨身not equal to 單身. Totally unnecessary to define or label self.
9. Learn & practice dealing w intimacy
10. Live at the moment! Single girlfriends, be happy n fabulous n be prepared!

Nick Vujicic

Watched 2 Nick's talk this week. Frankly, not that impressive than expected. Cold hearted in city like HK. Not easy to please us. Well, he's only 26. He'll be better in terms of skill. He's too tired coming back n forth between hk, china. It took him much more energy than we do to give such a speech though. He kept saying he love us although I couldn't feel it. How come I find the whole thing a bit commercial? Well, God is using him to get into forbidden countries. He has the vision and he's doing it. He, president of 2 NGO, plans to raise 120 billion per year to help the needy. For that I am touch. Not by his speech but his work. Nick, keep it up! Pray for your health.

Tutoring H today. When just arrived, a severe pain from stomach hit on me. H noticed my pain. Ran out and got 2 herbal oil for me. Instructed me to apply at toilet. And pain actually gone after. He asked me when to do the check up at hospital and if any advice from his mother is required. He's a sweetheart! No wonder I love him so much even he's not smart and easy to tutor... can't get it all right! The world told us intelligent, but I say kindness win, always do!

Magic Flute in HK

My first Magic Flute opera tonight. Going w roomate. We talked abt what to wear last nite. Brought me back to 20+. We met at burger restaurant. She had veg burger. I got stomachache for weeks so I had only the meat w mushroom on salsa sauce. When we walked from Harbor city to Cultural ctr, felt the confident and fun. But when we got there we noticed the show should be 30 mins earlier. The costume looked so pretty. Melodies are familiar. The soprano queen of the night sang really great. It's funny that so many fatty on the stage. We thought only fatty get the capacity for opera singing. It was a nice cultural evening if not my stomach got stressed during and after the Flute!

I was calling F to Nick show coz I got an extra ticket. End up finding out she's in need. Her mom at hospital. The current tube work no more and they need to put another one on her other arm. F was worrying not only her condition, but financially she n her 2 bros will hire a maid for their mom since she could no longer do the regular kidney cleanup independently. We came out, shared, and started praying at ice-cream restaurant. We both felt like hugging each other when praying. We did right before we left. It was spiritually fulfilling 2 of us. Thanks God 4 letting us pray together!