There is a friend same age as mine in another country. We haven't met and contact for long time. I guess since she got married. We kind of walking through diff stages together. But she always faster than me. She always chose the smarter way. If this is the end, she got what everybody wants and I got nothing. A husband, 2 kids, a nice flat of her own, a master degree from overseas and a good stable job. We used to dream together about our future. Now I felt scare to keep in touch with her. Not easy to face her. BUT... I shall not think in this way. She is my friend for all this time. No matter what happen to our lives, we re friends. At least givin her this thought to look for me in her newly open a/c at facebook. That means something! Plus, I am walking on a good track in God's eyes. I dare to be different as long as it's right! I will bravely walk on my way.... find my way out....continue my exotic life with God.